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Since 30th October 2010, my one and only.



Friendship that I'll always cherish.





(Wednesday, August 11, 2010 / 9:08 AM)

Baby told me about this when he got to see me yesterday, he summarized everything and told me this story. I can't believe I cry after listening to him. Really very sad! Today, I managed to find the whole article. Please spend some time reading it.


Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus’ lap. He loves me and
cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be
your little girl.

I don’t quite understand what has happened. I was so excited
when I began realizing my existance. I was in a dark, yet
comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty
far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my
surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between
you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with
you.Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard
Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better
soon. I wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I
couldn’t imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day,
the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came
into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I
began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe
you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I
was screaming and screaming,”Mommy, Mommy, help me
please; Mommy, help me.”

Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I
thought I couldn’t anymore.Then the monster started ripping
my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It
didn’t stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror
as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I
was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you
say how much you love me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans
to make you happy. Now I couldn’t; all my dreams were
shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain
of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything
to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful
death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had
done to you.

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I
didn’t know the words you could understand. And soon, I no
longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.I felt myself
rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful
place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He
loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked
Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered,
“Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels.” I
don’t know what abortion is; I guess that’s the name of the
monster.

I’m writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I
wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted
to live. I had the will, but I couldn’t; the monster was too
powerful. It sucked my arm and legs off and finally got all of
me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I
tried to stay with you. I didn’t want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through
the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.

Love,

Your Baby Girl

( / 8:53 AM)

I've been waiting to do this very long ago.

Cornflake Crunchies





Prepare paper patty cases and put them in a big plate.



Prepare this 3 ingredients as well as 2 tablespoon of white sugar.
Combine the honey, butter and sugar. Bring to boil, simmer for 5 minutes. Last step, combine the cornflakes together with it. Spoon the mixture into patty cases. Refrigerate until set, about 1 hour. Store in the container for up to 2 days.





Tadahhh!!!!

(Tuesday, August 10, 2010 / 8:51 AM)



Sugar Cane Juice & Katong Laksa.
My only motivation for work on 10th August 2010 :D

(Monday, August 9, 2010 / 8:46 AM)



I spent my National Day with Baby in the afternoon and my cousins in the evening. Can't get to see fireworks with Baby this year because he's working night shift. :(

(Sunday, August 8, 2010 / 10:17 AM)



This super large pimple on my forehead is super irritating! So long don't have such big pimple already lor! Its super painful! I tried using needle to poke it so that the white thingy will burst out, but no matter how I poke, IT JUST DON'T COME OUT! Waste my effort squeezing it for so long, and the pain I've to tolerate. Rah!!

Friday-Monday, Long weekend, I love!

Friday and Saturday: Baby!
Sunday: Dinner with Mekard @ Lot One.
Monday: Baby! (1st half of the day) Cousins' house (2nd half of the day)

Received my confirmation letter on Friday, finally. Three months of probation. And now, I'm entitled for 9 days of leave. Its pro-rated because I worked less than a year. If not will have 14 days :)

(Monday, August 2, 2010 / 7:05 AM)

一个人如果条件很好， 有一百分 ， 可是这一百分之中， 他只给你三四十分， 或一二十分；

相反地， 另一个人也许只有七八十分， 可是他却是全心全意的对待你，

你会选择那一个？

I've my flaws, I'm not perfect, It is not that I want you to accept the mistakes I've made in the past... But don't ignore me just like this.

I really hope that he'll spend sometime watching the 12 minutes video I've shared in facebook.

Fml.

(Sunday, August 1, 2010 / 8:04 AM)



I love my new hair clips!

I showed my mum, our conversation:

Mum: 买这样多 clips 做么?
Me: 买来 clip 头发 lah！ 不然买来 clip NEH NEH ah？！